Well I basically just failed the rest of the semester for my health class all because my computer is fucking up. And it won’t sage to the USB drive either. And I’m just so fucking done. So I try and then I end up failing. So I don’t try anymore but end up feeling worse than before. Sometimes I just ask myself “Why are you still trying?” And honestly I don’t know why I am. Out of all the things I’ve done and tempted, I still can’t let go. And I want to know why. I want to know why I can’t just give up. And honestly the few people that matter to me now don’t give a single fuck about me. But yet I still care so much for them. Whys it so fucking hard? It was never this hard. All I want to do is give up. That’s all I want. I want nothing else in life. That’s the thing though. I DONT WANT LIFE. AT ALL.